Kendrick Lamar – Auntie Diaries Lyrics

 

Auntie Diaries Lyrics by Kendrick Lamar

 

My auntie is a man now
I think I’m old enough to understand now
Drinking paulmasson with her hat turned backwards
Motorolla pager off white guess jacket
Blue air maxes, gold chains and curl kits
93′ Nissan wax job, the earliest
Big social, big personality, vocal
Played the underground verbatim and stayed local

My auntie is a man now
I watch him and his girl holding hands now
Tipping the avenues under streetlights made his
Thinking, I want me a bad bitch when I get big
They hug on the corner like California came cold
Hand all up her skirt, cars whistling down the road

See, my auntie is a man now
Slight bravado scratching the likes from lotto
Hoping that she pull up tomorrow
So I can hangout in the front seat
Six by nines keeping the music up under me
My auntie is a man now
Asked my momma why my uncles don’t like him that much
And at the parties why they always want to fight him that much
She said, “Ain’t no telling”
N***** always been jealous because he had more women
More money and more attention made more envy
Calling him anything but broke was less offending

My auntie is a man now
I think I’m old enough to understand now
Drinking paulmasson with her hat turned backwards
Back when it was comedic relief to say faggot
Faggot, faggot, faggot
We ain’t know no better
Elementary kids with no filter
However, my auntie became a man and I took pride in it
She wasn’t gay, she ate pussy and that was the difference
That’s what I told my friends in second grade
She picking me up from school, they stare at her in the face
They couldn’t comprehend what I grew accustomed
We pull off bumping quick like it was nothing

My auntie is a man now, what a relationship
I grew up fast I needed no one to baby sit
He gave me some cash, then gave me some game
Cherry freshener on the dash, I never complained
She even cut my hair at the pad, was loving my fade
The first person I seen write a rap, that’s when my life had changed
House full of demos, smoke stuck on the window
Cameras on the microphone, all women and men know

My auntie was a man now
We cool with it
The history had trickled down and made us ignant
My favorite cousin said he’s returning the favor
And following my auntie with the same behavior
Demetrius is Marry Anne now, he’s more confident to live his plan now
But the family in disbelief this time, convincing themselves
See, he ain’t living discreet, he’s fine
They said they never seen it in him, like I seen it
The Barbie dolls played off reflection of Venus
He built a wall so tall, you couldn’t climb over
He didn’t laugh as hard when the kids started joking

Faggot, faggot, faggot
We ain’t know no better, middle school kids with no filter
However, I had to be very mindful of my good cousin
I knew exactly who he was, but I still loved him
Demetrius is Marry Anne now
I mean, he’s really Marry Anne
Even took things further, changed his gender before Bruce Jenner was certain
Living his truth, even if it meant see a surgeon
We didn’t talk for a while, he seemed more distant
Wasn’t comfortable around me, everything was offensive
But I recall, we both had a sick sense of humor made raw
But time changes all
Demetrius is Mary Anne now
Remember church Easter Sunday
I sat in the pew, you had stronger faith
More spiritual and enthused with living life straight
Which I found ironic, because the pastor didn’t see him the same
He said my cousin was going through some things
He promised the world we living in was an act on abomination
And Demetrius was to blame
I knew you was conflicted by the feelings of preacher man
Wondering if God still call you a decent man
Still you found the courage to be subservient just to anoint
Until he singled you out to prove his point
Saying, Demetrius is Marry Anne now
Church, his auntie is a man now
It hurt you the most, can show belief
Was close to his words forcing me to stand now

I said, “Mr. Preacher Man, should we love thy neighbor?”
The laws of the land of the heart, what’s greater?
I recognize the studies you was taught since birth
But that don’t justify the feelings that my cousin preserved
The building was thinking out loud, bad angel
That’s when you looked at me and smiled, said, “Thank you”
The day I chose humanity over religion
The family got closer, it was all forgiven
I said them F bombs, I ain’t know any better
Mistakenly, I ain’t think that you know any different
See I was taught words was nothing more than a sound
If ever they was pronounced without any intentions
The very second you challenged the shit I was kickin’
Reminding me about a show I did out the city
That time I brung a fan on stage to rap
But disapproved a word that she couldn’t say with me
You said, “Kendrick ain’t no room for contradiction”
To truly understand love, switch positions
Faggot, faggot, faggot
We can say it together
But only if you let a white girl say n****