Going Through Things Lyrics by Kalan.FrFr
Look at my eyes
It Look like I need to pray
Sure hurt inside
But I still smile in your face
I want to cry
But I can’t let you see me cry
I want to die
But I can’t go
Until I know you good
It was all love
Then n***** hated
But I knew they would
It be all fun getting faded
Until you get a deal
System of prejudice and racist
But they call it business
Police kill a n****
Call another police as the witness
Homie kill a n****
We do a joint sentence
This is where we going to let the choir sing
This a joint sentence
I would pray for change
But ain’t no change coming
I would pray for rain
But I don’t want to change my feet
I would say her name
But I don’t want to chase that bitch
Acting like I aint gon be sick
Like I hate that bitch
Sometimes I be in a mood
And I hate that shit
Sometimes I just want you
And I hate that shit
Sometime my ma think I don’t love her
I don’t call enough
Sometime my pops think I don’t love him
I don’t call enough
Some of my sisters feel like I don’t love em
We don’t talk too much
Some of the homies feel like I don’t love em
I ain’t seen em lately
I been going thru things
Sometimes I be letting the phone ring
I know you be worried about me
I don’t want you to worry about me
Cause I be worried about you
You know I’d be hurt without you
Just know I got you
Just know I got you
Even when I’m gone
I been going thru things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
I know you be worried about me
I don’t want you to worry about me
They all know I won’t give this up for nothing
I done got so famous
That I’m famous to my cousins
Everybody they I made it
But this shit ain’t really nothing
All the times I had to smile
When I was so sick to my stomach
All the times I said I couldn’t
And I couldn’t but you ain’t believe me
All the times I said I would
You said I wouldn’t
Cause you couldn’t see it
My mama and my daddy both sick
I’m just glad I’m breathing
I’m smiling as fuck cause it ain’t easy
But I know they need me
I been going thru things
Imma be alright so don’t you worry about me
Long as I’m breathing
I’m gonna try to make it easy on you
Long as I got it
And you need me
I’m gone come through
Running, speeding, flying
Don’t you treat me like you don’t know who I am
Told you I love you
And you told me I was lying
Don’t you treat me like you don’t know who I am
I be going thru things
Sometimes I be letting the phone ring
I know you be worried about me
I don’t want you to worry about me
Cause I be worried about you
You know I’d be hurt without you
Just know I got you
Just know I got you
Even when I’m gone
So I feel guilty
I feel like I don’t talk to my mom
As much as I should
And it really bothers me
I hope she always know where my heart is
Cause I don’t always feel like I’m doing enough
With my pops, I feel like
I know he going through a lot right now
And I can’t be there for him
The way he want me to be there for him
So I just, I be feeling guilty
Cause I know he be going through so much
Its helpless ain’t nothing I can do for him
I just hope he knows that I’m always there for him
And with all the wrong on in the world
The hardest place to look is in the mirror
I hear em talk so bad about a n****
And all the shit get passed around
I just wonder if its as hard for them
As its hard for me
Counting my pockets for their own profit
Don’t know what I got
Or what I make
Just wondering what they could take
Its okay that’s what I’m here for
It’s a lot I notice
I notice that when I say no
Your care for me switches focus
But Its okay that’s what I’m here for
I do know that if roles were reversed
And I was down and I was hurt
You wouldn’t give me your last
You would put your priorities first
But it’s all good
Cause you know that I’d never ask
I rather go out all bad
Then let you know I’m on my ass
Cause in my heart
I know my mills due like wet grass
And I’m a hustler
It ain’t nothing for me to get not 1 bag
Everything ain’t always what it seems
Nightmares often get mistaken for dreams
And I don’t know what it’s like being you
But I can tell you it ain’t easy being me
The pressure make me stay to myself
When y’all call I don’t always answer
Cause I don’t always got nothing good to say
Everybody go through their own shit
And I don’t want to put my problems on nobody
I know y’all worried about me
But I don’t yall to worry about me
Cause I’m worried about y’all
And I love you with my whole heart
Shoot the ones that love me the most
Done hurt me the worst
But I understand and I forgive
I just hope they forgive me too
I been to more funerals than anything
And to be absent from the body
Is to be present with the heart
When you die is when everybody
Get a chance to have you (You know)
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t
Sometimes I wish it wasn’t gon to be
Or it wasn’t going to take that long
To get you to understand
If sooner than later
Tell my child who I was through in and through out
And make sure they know my love
The same as you do
TwoFr (Even when I’m gone)