Bastard Lyrics
My heart colder than Alaska
Living life without a father
Shit was hard
I never knew I’d be a bastard
In love with the streets shit I wouldn’t wanna leave
I never knew I’d be a rapper
Fell in love with music
I used to distribute
I’m supposed to be a trapper
Look me in my eyes
Tell me what you see
Pain
This shit run deep
I swear I’m so tired of this shit
Till I’m weak
Been able to sleep
I’ve been so paranoid
This shit crazy
I just been prayin the lord give me peace
I got to keep a rod close to me
Sometimes it be hard just to eat
They don’t wanna see me win
It’s hard to keep some friends
I’m tryna keep my mind focused
I’m tryna find peace again
I lay down with one of my eyes open
The reaper been pulling me in
Lord forgive me for all of my sins
Lord forgive me for all of my sins
Momma know I’m living reckless
She send me a message like son be safe
Goin back to forth to court
I been stressin
Thank god that I won the case
In the box it’s just me and depression
I’m fighting this shit everyday
All these demons won’t leave me alone
Think it’s better if I be alone
I know 12 gonna throw me in jail
I been walking a straight line
In my cell I was stuck on no bail
Living life through facetime
Thought you f*ck with me
But I can’t tell
All you did was waste time
I’m exhausted
They tryna f*ck over me often
Everytime I get up
I keep falling
What you mean
Bitch you know I’m still balling
Get the green
Like I played up in Boston
Walk through the storm
And it rain on me
Kept it real
Through it all but they changed on me
Don’t know why they always put the blame on me
Still road for my man
Till my tank was on E
My heart colder than Alaska
Living life without a father
Shit was hard
I never knew I’d be a bastard
In love with the streets shit I wouldn’t wanna leave
I never knew I’d be a rapper
Fell in love with music
I used to distribute
I’m supposed to be a trapper
Look me in my eyes
Tell me what you see
Pain
This shit run deep
I swear I’m so tired of this shit
Till I’m weak
Been able to sleep
I’ve been so paranoid
This shit crazy
I just been prayin the lord give me peace
I got to keep a rod close to me
Sometimes it be hard just to eat